Feeling alone, helpless, weak
I struggle to be strong.
I struggle to BE
My body does not do what I want
My mind does not keep things around
My will is strong though I feel weak
My desire to BE drives me
My desire, my need to be Mom, Wife, Friend
It is all I have some days
I give my all, it looks like I don’t
I fight the pain, I appear lazy
Looks can be deceiving
I look well, feel like hell
God gives only what we can handle
Do I doubt God? No. Do I doubt me? Mostly
I won’t give up, I won’t give in
But I give and give and give
Just so I can live